so today is the first day for me to take tamoxifen. i kept putting it off this morning because i just didn't want to accept the fact that i will be going through menopause at the ripe old age ofn 33. i sarcastically asked omar to remind me again why exactly i have to do this. he said, because you want to live. my response? oh yeah.
yesterday i went for my first fill up since early may. i now have a nice size a! i was soo excited....shoot, i still am! i keep looking at myself sideways admiring them!
then i went to get my first shot to supress my ovaries. i had no idea what to expect. first, i thought i would never have to set foot into the chemo ward ever again. wrong. i will be going there every 4 weeks for the next 3 years. i cried. anyways, next the nurse told me that she would shot some novacaine into my belly to numb it up before shooting the capsule into my belly. ummmmm, what! you mean it's not a shot?!?! this just gets better and better. then i asked her, sarcastically, if this medicine would make me loose 20
lbs (i have gained 10lbs during chemo! but i think 3 of those are from cancun last week!). anyways, she looked at me like i was crazy. clearly she didn't understand my great since of humor and sarcasm! so she sticks me with novacaine and that hurt. then the new nurse who had never done the procedure before starts in on me with the capsule of hormones. it didn't hurt, thank you novacaine, but it was still weird. i was told i might be able to feel the capsule under my skin, but i haven't tried to feel around for it yet! i had some serious cramping after that. it fely like contractions. i came home and went right to bed.
awesome!
